UnAirBrushed

2005-12-20T19:48:00.000-05:00

As Salaam Alaikum,

Long time no see. Wow.

salaam

2005-10-12T18:39:00.000-04:00

Sometimes I Feel That God Awards Me... I Saved 2 Dollars on a 6 dollar Budget

As Salaam Alaikum,

Now I'm not the type of person who believes in the whole "God talked to me so I did this and this" thing. Rathar I believe that I have a good conscious, and sometimes when I follow that good conscious I feel that I am awarded by God... often with something dealing directly over my dillema. Here's my story:

Tomorrow I have to bring food to school for the Beta Club meeting in the morning. At first I was going to bring 3 medium size bags of chips, then I decided to call someone and ask how many poeple are expected to attend, and they said 15. So I was like "darn!"... Those 3 bags weren't going to be enough... so for about 30 minutes I troddled back and forth from the chip aisle to the candy aisle, trying to figure out what I can get that could feed 15 poeple on a 6 dollar budget (and I really didn't want to spend 6 dollars at all)... I didn't want just regular candy, I wanted food that was snack like.. like chips, crackers, cookies, etc.

But anyway, as I was trying to figure out what to get. I was faced with getting a Rice Krispie jumbo bag (you know with the small snack sizes inside of them wrapped up). Now I would of bought it, but I was stopped in my tracks because rumor has it (but I'm not for sure) that Rice Krispie has pork in it (geletan and mono-dyglecirde). I have really wanted one of those RK's for a week now (I wanted to drool when I saw this girl in class eat one), but I've been avoiding it becuase I'm unsure if it has pork in it or not.

So I really wanted to convice myself that if I didn't know, then I don't know, therefore ALlah's knows best and if there's pork in it, then I don't know and there's no harm in giving it out. lol. Then I wanted to convince myself that there's NO WAY pork is in it. But then it all came back to "Well i don't know"... and how I rememeber that if we don't know, we should just avoid it.

What made matters even worst and tempting, was the fact that the RK jumbo pack was just 2.49 and the other jumbo packs were 2.99!!! So I thought about it for a while, and then decided that I would just go for the other jumbo pack for 2.99, plus another jumbo pack for 2.99.... So I walk up to the cashier all bummed out because I am about to spend 6+ dollars on this once taxes are added in... and then she rings it up and guess what?!!!

It's 1.88!!!! I was like "1.88?!" and she was like "yea". I guess they haven't put up the fact that it's on sale now... anyways I was so happy. I saved like 2 dollars and something cents, that I thought I would have to spend.

So honestly I feel that maybe I was awarded for resisting temptation. Just a test. I suppose my punishment for taking the RK would of been spending 2 extra dollars that I wouldn't have had to spend if I had gave in....

Allah knows best though.

salaam

2005-10-05T18:21:00.000-04:00

Ramadhan Mubarak! And I Have a "News Blog" As Well

As Salaam Alaikum,
Ramadhan is here! Alhumdulilah! Please visit my new "news blog" called "The Muslim Realist". It's a site that is a blog that is against terrorism and it critisizes it. Check it out, please comment, plesae trackback. It needs your support.

So how is Ramadhan? Today is my first day of fasting. Yes, unlike many people I chose to start when I saw the moon in my own country (the USA). It really makes me upset when people choose to go by other countries and start and not their own country and town. Man it makes me upset, really upset. I would really like to celebrate eid together with all of my family at once. But unfortunnatly I wont be able to. Geesh people.

salaam

2005-10-03T19:03:00.000-04:00

Ramdhan..I can Smell It

As Salaam Alaikum,
So Ramadhan will begin tomorrow or Wednesday. Who knows. well I am still unsure what to do with this blog really. I don't know.

salaam

2005-09-29T21:28:00.000-04:00

Jummah Is Tomorrow

As Salaam Alaikum,
Tomorrow is jummah everyone. I hope all of you go, Insha'Allah and enjoy the khutbah. I am going, checking out of school early (checking myself out may I ask!). Well what else? Nothing really... just chilling.

Ramadan will be here in like 4 days!! yay!

salaam

2005-09-26T21:02:00.000-04:00

I Love My Hair

As Salaam Alaikum,

Man I love my hair. I love the way it feels. Dry, some moisture, tight curls. I love the way I can just wrap it around my finger and when I let it go it bounces back. I love feel running my hands through it and the curls just tickle my finger tips. Oh Allah! Thank you so much for it.

salaam

2005-09-25T21:37:00.000-04:00

Ramadan is Coming

As Salaam Alaikum,

Ramadan is coming soon. Alhumdulilah. I can’t wait. Insha’Allah I will loose some wait. No more eating French fries almost everyday for lunch, and stuff like that. I am wondering if maybe I should sacrifice some other things… but I am not sure. I don’t really have any strong addictions anymore, they’ve dwindled down.

Also I have to plan for my party. Yikes. It’s going to be soooo much. I can’t wait!

salaam

2005-09-22T00:49:00.000-04:00

I’m Not Nosey, I’m Just A Journalist

As Salaam Alaikum,

Well you all guess what? I am officially on my first assignment for the school newspaper! I am doing an article on teen pregnancy. I think that I will title it “The Teen Parents of *School“. I am also doing a column called “Adventures with *My Name”. I’m excited about both of them.

I hope that my article will make people think, and I like the fact that my column is going to be like in every issue (if I get approved). It’s just going to be about “trips”/things that I am doing that deal with school or teenagers. Like the first one will be all about homecoming… how I went to the parade, the pep rally, homecoming game, and dance. And the following one will be about going to the:

STD CLINIC!

Yup I’m going go to get tested and blah, blah. I just want to show other kids how easy it is to get tested and stuff. Now that will be interesting.

salaam

2005-09-18T13:27:00.000-04:00

They Don’t Greet You with a Smile

As Salaam Alaikum,

Guess what you all? Yesterday I snuck off, called my friend Abdullah, and got the directions for a local mosque in my town from him. No, no my parents aren’t some evil non-Muslims who don’t want me to be a Muslim, lol. I just got my driver’s license so they don’t want me driving all over the place, and they’re actually Muslim aswell.

Anyways so I drove up to the mosque and I felt so cool about it. I went inside and looked around and it was pretty nice. It’s a small little mosque, so it’s not big and grand, but it’s so cute to me. I liked it a lot.

I ended up praying Asr and then I decided to wait around for about 45 minutes and then pray Maghrib, hoping that people will come in when it’s time for Maghrib (I was at the mosque by myself).

So when it was about time for Maghrib, the Imam and his two sons had came in (I was in the men’s section). One was like a teenager and the other was probably 8 or 9. Anyways one thing that I noticed was that they didn’t greet me with a smile. Awww. Their expressions weren’t mean or anything, but I didn’t get the “welcome” feeling from them. Though it was not shocking, lol.

This is something that I’ve noticed among foreign men, many don’t greet women with “smiles” or any particular warm hospitality. And their “As Salaam Alaikum” greeting is still very blank, and doesn’t come off as “welcoming either”.

Now though, when I went back to the women’s section, where his wife had come in, she greeted me with a smile. She was really interested in me. Lol. She asked for my name, where I went to school, asked me if I would attend jummah, and the iftars during Ramadan. Stuff like that. I liked her. lol. I hope to come back.

salaam

2005-09-17T09:17:00.000-04:00

Top Ten Reasons Why I Hate The Gawaher Forum.

As Salaam Alaikum,

One of my favorite hobbies is to post on Islamic based forums. Though I love many of the posts I absolutely hate most forums systems… meaning I hate their rules, their disciplinary ways, and of course their often communist rule.

Recently I was disciplined by a forum called Gawaher. Why? Well because of a bogus reason that I will not specifically say, but my content was taking totally out of context. But of course they chose to look the other way and believe what they want to believe.

So here are my Top 10 Reasons Why I Hate The Gawaher Forum:

10.) The forum essentially goes dead some days and some days it’s alive.
09.) There are too many topis dedicated to how women should dress.
08.) They say that they do not acknowledge sects such as Sunni or Shi’ite, but some administrators choose to discipline folks if they speak of things that are opposite of Sunni Sect. The forum needs to choose!
07.) Too many people are insensitive and choose to knock down people’s intentions.
06.) The Forum Administrator is mean to me.
05.) There are too many Anti-American comments.
04.) Too many anti-western comments.
03.) Their way of running the forum is on the verge of communist.
02.) Too many hate on me.
01.) I Still Don’t Have My Posting Rights Back. Lol

salaam

2005-09-16T17:37:00.000-04:00

Should I Stay or Should I Go? Muslim Day.

As Salaam Alaikum,

Muslim Day in Atlanta… should I stay (home) or should I go? What should I do? I have my own car and everything so I could go if I wanted to, wait- my mom doesn’t want me driving on the interstate, and I don’t feel that comfortable driving on the interstate as well, at least not by myself.

Though it would be cool to see a lot of Muslims, who exactly would I be with? My parents aren’t going and I don’t believe that my cousins are as well, so I’m stuck. I’m trying to decide so I can tell my friend Fazaal if I will go. He wants to go but if no one he knows is up there, he won’t.

So I’m stuck. Also I’ve been driving for the past 2 days, awesome. I love driving now, I guess it’s because I drive by myself and my mom isn’t breathing down my neck.

Salaam

2005-09-14T16:25:00.000-04:00

What Is Faith? Are Mercy Abortions Really Halaal?

As Salaam Alaikum,

For the past several weeks or so I have been contemplating the question “What is faith?” I think this sprang from a previous blog (at another site)… and well I’ve been stumped by this question ever since.

Maybe my question isn’t exactly “What is faith?” but more about obeying God and keeping it up to him since he may have commanded something. For instance, let’s speak of abortion, as we all know abortion is haraam (forbidden). It specifically tells us in the Q’uran to not abort our children. I have not read anything in the Q’uran (our very first and most important source) that tells us ‘We can’t abort our children unless…” Nothing. The Q’uran even goes further to say that he will not put things on us that is too great for us to bear.

But yet people (Muslims) do say that abortion is ok if the child will be ill or if the mother or child will die during birth.

So I have to ask myself, well since Allah knows best and he has commanded us to not have abortions and that he has told us that he will not put anything on us that is too much for us too bear………shouldn’t we just keep our faith in Allah? Meaning shouldn’t we just keep this child? And if we die during labor, we die… we die with our faith in him and with intentions of obeying him?

What do you think?

salaam

2005-09-13T20:38:00.000-04:00

Another Teenager Can Legally Drive

As Salaam Alaikum,

Guess what everyone? I am very please to tell you all that I have passed my driver’s test with a 76! Lol. Hey, if it’s good enough to pass… it’s good enough to pass. I’m so happy! I drove to the mall by myself today… ate, got my nails done, bought some accessories for my car. Lol.

What else? Nothing really. I have a ton of homework and stuff like that.

salaam

2005-09-12T20:27:00.000-04:00

Religiously Conscious

As Salaam Alaikum,

Well since about March/April I have come into my own personal religious revival. This religious revival began with me reading about Salat (prayer) and then quickly progressing in my performance. At first I did two prayers a day (starting from going months without even making prayer), but in a matter of maybe a month I progressed into all 5 prayers. In about May I was consistent in all of my prayers, and Alhumdulilah I have practicing all 5 prayers that are of obligation to me ever since.

See I have never considered myself religious, I still do not. But I do consider myself to be religiously conscious. What is religiously conscious? Well that is just having God and religion on my mind. Wondering what would please God, thinking of what he has told me to do, and what possibly violates my religion (Islam).

I think about God everyday and most likely every hour. Actually I probably think of God as much as men think of sex… well maybe not that much, but hey that is just how important God is to me, how important my religion is to myself.

Look at me! I am so excited about getting my driver’s license. Not only because I will be able to drive to school and to the mall… but because I can go to Jummah (which is like Church) on Friday. I think that I am going to go maybe every other week, because it’s during school. I don’t want to miss every Friday in World Lit. But seriously, I am really excited about this. I want to be more involved in my community… though I am unsure of where they are (we have Muslims in my city, but I’m unsure of where the mosque are. I think in my profile it says I live in Atlanta, not exactly, so it’s not as obvious as it would be in Atlanta. Lol)

Anyways I am so happy that I have become a better person and I am practicing charity and prayer. I am really looking forward to Ramadan also. It will be fun.

salaam

My Life Sucks... Again

2005-09-11T14:37:00.000-04:00

As Salaam Alaikum,

Well you all my little brother has enterd the world. Well actually I'm not really sure if it's my little brother (my dad has to take a DNA test, but i bet it's his anway). I don't know this baby's name or anything. I don't really care to know right now.

I'm still really upset by this situation. My dad has apologized to my mother, older brother and sister about this, but not to me yet. Simply because he can't face me about this situation. See I have no piety towards him and I'm not afraid to be frank with him. He knows that I only want him for his money and I am not afraid to say it. I'm not afraid to talk back or anything. And he knows that I will call the cops on him if he ever touched me (I've done it before).

I can't stand the fact that he, an adultress, has so much control over my life. i can't stand it all. I swear to you that all I want to do is curse him out and call up Jameela (his mistress) and ruin her memories of the first few days of her baby's life. I want to beat this *gitche's ast* so bad. I can't wait until I curse her out really well.

Yesterday though, I realized that I do have some "love" for this child. I was at Old Navy and was thinking about maybe buying it a bib or something, but then I was like no. I don't want Jameela touching it, being happy or anything. So I decided not to buy it.

When it's older, and when it may come over, I may get it something... but it will stay at my house. I don't want Jameela doing anyhting with it! So when I buy the baby clothes, the clothes will stay at my house. He'll have to take them off when he goes back over to his mother's. Seriously. All of his toys will stay here.

I hate my dad.
salaam